So many Emotions running through my soul today! Happy, Sad, Excited, Anxious, Heart Broken, Blessed..... Last year my daddy passed through the veil and left those of us here with lots of wonderful memories. Oh how I miss this daddy of mine. I text this to my siblings today: MY HERO...."You held my hand when I was small, you caught me when I fell, you're the hero of my childhood and my later years as well. And every time I think of you, my heart still fills with pride though I'll always miss you daddy dear, I know you're by my side. In laughter and in sorrow, in sunshine and through rain, I know you're watching over me until we meet again." My daddy was a good daddy! He was a wonderful provider, an honest man, hard worker, mellow, loving, kind, quiet, caring and just plain wonderful. He truly is My Hero!!!
My thoughts have wondered back to last year when we were able to help keep my daddy comfortable while he was preparing to pass. Part of me hated those days. I so wished that the doctors could do more and help him get strong again...it made me so sad that the decision was made to go home so he could pass. I am pretty darn sure it made my dad sad too....he was coherent and didn't feel like he had a say at that point....that broke my heart. Part of me loved those days. My brothers and sister were all at my parents and we all worked together to help my mom and dad. I loved watching my brothers interact with their nieces and nephews and chase them around the yard. We had lots of fun memories during that time. We all loved and supported each other and it felt good.
My kids were so kind and gentle with their grandpa. They would come and rub his hands and comb his hair because he really enjoyed that. I would rub his feet everyday until just a few days before he passed when it no longer felt good to him. I loved that I was able to soothe him those last weeks and that it was my "job" to rub his feet.
I loved all the love that was shown and felt during those times. I really think it bound our family even closer. I know that we can all count on each other. I loved sleeping in my dads bed so that I could be close if I was needed. I was so worried that I would be the only one not there when he passed because of my responsibilities. My family was great and supported me so that I could be at my parents during those week.
I love that my kids came to be by their grandpa and make some last memories of him. It was hard seeing my strong daddy become weak and helpless...but he was always grateful for everyone's help and expressed it while he could.
I love that I was there when my daddy took and exhaled his last breath. I was standing in front of him and Jaydan and Braxton were there and so was my little brother. It was peaceful and I remember holding my breath waiting to see if he was going to catch another breath and when he didn't I slowly exhaled my breath and said a silent prayer thanking my Heavenly Father for allowing me to be there. The others were close and joined us and we stood around my daddy and a prayer was said by Jaydan. I'm so glad we have a Heavenly Father to bless and comfort us...He truly did!
So Now Today on My Daddy's Angelversary we are doing his Temple Work and Sealing Him to my mom.......and I get to be sealed to them too! Larry get's to his proxy which I think is so cool. I'm so Happy and also a little sad....I so wish my brothers and sister could be there too. I truly never believed this day would happen but my daddy told my mom to go ahead and do his work when she could after he passed. I'm glad it's happening on his Angelversary...it adds Sunshine to a Cloudy Day!
Oh Happy Happy Day!
