Today Crystal brought me over cookies and a sweet note. I asked her why and she said she didn't know...only that I kept popping into her head. My eyes filled with tears and I'm not sure why...I told her I didn't know what was wrong. I have been very emotional lately but for no good reason.....out of the blue I just tear up. I don't feel sad or stressed or anything and I told her that. She just smiled and told me God knew and that's why she came over. After she mentioned that I recalled a few more things that have happened that have stuck out to me.
Just this morning a dear friend told me that when she grew up she wanted to be like me. Funny...I want to be more like her. Another friend messaged me...."I love you Dawn, you are so cute". Another friend text me: "Are you okay?" and then listened to some of my concerns. The list goes on and on.....really these are just a few of the nice things...every day this kind of niceness is happening to me and it means so much and I realize that Heavenly Father is talking to me through my friends. He does know what is happening....I still don't but I know that whatever it is He cares about me and is speaking to me through others. I am thankful to the "others" for taking the time to do these little, simple asks of kindness. It made me remember the time Bryce (my nephew) called and told me that he really appreciated all that I do for him and his family including his original family. I was struggling at that time and Heavenly Father used Bryce so I would recognize it was HIM. I bet there were others telling me nice things that I wasn't recognizing. That is the only time I ever remember Bryce calling me and he even had to try a few times before he finally got me. (He was following the spirit...I know) I know that God has used me in that way too....I remember the day well, and when I was trying to talk myself out of acknowledging a friend from Facebook I was reminded of Bryce taking the time and me recognizing God's hand in it so I also followed the prompting and it felt good. I even made sure the gal knew I had had a similar experience and that is why God sent me....He is so aware of us.
I am so glad that God has my back. He knows when things are hard and he sends others to help. He strengthens me continually and I am so Thankful. My testimony is growing so much because I am being tested....again.....I hate Satan! The one good thing though from having Satan bug me so much is knowing that I must really be worth his effort. I must have something wonderful that he can't stand....I might help bring others to Christ and God and that just must bug him right back. I bet he hates me too.....I don't care! When I finally realize his efforts it is easier to be stronger. I usually don't care about winning that much but when it is between me and Satan I do care and I will win! Plus, God and Jesus have my back and with them I can't lose. I love God....I love Jesus....I want to follow them and eventually be like them!
