I don't like to complain but I do like to be real. I use to have more days like the one today but seriously I can't remember them. Changing my attitude and focusing on the positive things in life has been magical and most every single day is wonderful. Today I had a harder time convincing myself there was a lot of good going on.
I woke up with a gut ache. I'm not sure if it was related to stress but I was thinking so. I worry...it's the human thing to do. A few of our family members have been sick and it concerns me. I worry about my kids and the things going on or not going on in their lives. I pray with all my heart and soul to understand and trust in God and His will. I'm usually good at it. Today I struggled, and complained and expressed all my negative thoughts. (never about God's plan...I do totally trust Him)
On the way to bowling I unloaded on Carla. She listened and said she was glad I could unload since she did a little the other night at dinner. I'm glad I can trust my friends with all my concerns. The one good thing that happened from being up tight and stressed and having a woozy tummy is that I bowled really good the first game. As I loosened up my bowling went down. By the third game I was barely getting the ball to the pins. I was in the potty room a lot. My tummy did not let up. I was a bit miserable.
Larry slept out in the living room just in case I was contagious. I'm not going to lie...having the bed to myself was another good thing that happened today. I wouldn't enjoy sleeping alone all the time but tonight it was good. I had my space and sometimes I just need it.
I think about my worst day and have to laugh out loud. Today really wasn't that bad but when you get use to wonderful days it seemed like it was. I know that stressing and worrying about things doesn't help anything. I also know that things always work out in the long run. For days like today its important to remember to "Breathe"....Big, Deep Breaths.
