Life Goes On....Ready or Not

It's easier going and taking care of arrangements when they have already been done.  Mom and Dad went and chose what they wanted years ago and paid for it.  So, when we went it was pretty simple..we just had to pick times and days and verify everything.  I only cried for a minute or so when I thought some of my kids wouldn't be included.  It worked out perfect though and I believe everyone was happy and fine with the decisions made.  Waiting a week for the service seems so long but in a way it's kind of nice.  I get to see my daddy again and I look forward to that.  I know Thursday is going to be hard.  (Happy Tears..Happy Tears...trying to stay positive)

I was going to go to lunch with my siblings and mom on Saturday to Taggarts but lost the enthusiasm after some unpleasant things happened.  I have decided I will not fake that unfairness is okay...I won't be a part of it.  I decided that going and watching Kamryn play soccer and taking my girls to lunch is where I needed to be.  It was the right choice.  I love being with my girls and we all had a good time together.  Kimleighel was with Larry and Jared Deer Hunting.  Kelsi was with Braxton in Denver. The rest of us were able to go.  I love my girls and being with them.  We had a fun time!  They make my heart happy even when it was sad.

Tonya and Mark and so kind and came by one night to visit us and give us hugs.  They had been out of town and even though they were tired they came by.  I love them so much and it meant a lot to have them stop by.  I gave Tonya a "Sunshine Bag" because she is one of the kindest people I know.  She helps with her parents all the time is just plain wonderful!  I've had that bag waiting for her!

 Tuesday the "Hooper Honey's" went to lunch to celebrate Tammy.  Tammy's birthday is National Angel Food Cake day and so I got her a halo.  I was glad we were able to get together since they changed it because I was staying at my parents helping my dad.  It was nice being around my friends and feeling their love.  It was nice laughing and talking and just getting away for a minute.

 I've still wanted to spend time at my mom's and be around my brothers while they are here.  They make me smile and I am loving the time we have with them.  We had a few visitors one day.  My cousin, Jennifer was in town because her brother, Mike had passed on the 13th and they were having a family dinner to celebrate and honor Mike. (Mike was my dad's nephew)  I enjoyed visiting with Jennifer and loved listening to her talk.  I loved watching her facial expressions because it brought back a flood of memories.  Jennifer and I are the same age and use to have a lot of fun together.  Her expressions reminded me of her sweet sister Roxann who passed away about 4 years ago.

Tonya and Connie came up too and they brought thoughtful gifts for everyone.  They really are so thoughtful.  Tonya and I spent so much time at each other's homes.  There are so many memories. Tonya reminded us all how we use to climb up in the garage and play.  I guess my dad heard us and told us to be careful.  It was a little spot above the garage doors.  My parents used it for storage but we rearranged things so we could play house.  So many fun memories have been brought up this last month.  I really did have a fun life.

 Going up and down the road all the time can be boring but not all the time.  One day I was coming home and saw a big goat out standing on his back legs eating the leaves from a tree.  I wasn't quick enough with my camera.  However I was quick enough to get Braxton and Kelsi's "kids" one day.  They are cute and I always look at them coming and going.  Sometimes they make me laugh.  They are pretty darn cute.

So many people have showed such love and support to me.  I have received many texts, messages, cards, phone calls and just hugs from so many people. I even have a friend who brought dinner to my family and my mom and siblings.  She wouldn't take no for an answer. (she's bringing more on Thursday..I can't stop her...I've tried)  It really does help~all of it.  I really do feel blessed to be loved by so many.  I had a friend tell me the other day that we love differently.  Some people aren't capable of loving lots of people.  These kind of people show favorites and love those they associate with.  Then there are people who can love and treat everyone the same.  It doesn't matter how much time is spent with another for them to still be loved and treasured.  I'm like that....I really can and do love many people no matter how often I see them or how much time we spend together.  I was grateful for that piece of knowledge.  I shouldn't be upset if someone isn't "capable" of loving like I do.  I got that kind of love from my daddy...that's how he loved! 

So I know a few posts back I said I didn't want a lot of flowers at mine or Larry's funerals.  I might have to take that back.  Flowers make me smile and are appreciated since they are a form of love.  I'm feeling really loved.