I bowled really good my first game and then Julie called. Julie had just got back the results of her 3-D ultrasound and the doctor had just called her to let her know that their baby girl has water on her brain. Any kind of unexpected news is hard and this was not what any of us wanted to hear. My heart went out to Kevin and Julie...it broke a little because I knew their's were breaking a little. Julie is so wonderful and tried to be positive...it might not be too bad, we can handle and do hard things, our families are so supportive and everything will be okay. She's right everything will be okay but that doesn't take away the hurt or disappointment. I struggled my second game because my eyes kept leaking even though I was trying to be positive. I really do know that things happen for several reasons. I know that miracles still happen and maybe we will get one. I also know that God has a plan for each of us and some times a miracle isn't part of that plan. (I really want the miracle)
I am not one to keep things to myself. I need the love and support of family and friends. Once Julie sent a text to each of us I shared the news with my team. Later I let a few other friends know what was happening asking for their prayers. I know God hears and answers prayers. Even if we don't get our miracle we will be blessed by the prayers.
The Special Needs group put on a Fireside Tonight and it was fabulous. The spirit was so strong and I felt so much peace. I love this group of people. I was so impressed with the talks they shared and the music. It was such a great program that us leaders want it to be an annual event. My heart was filled with joy as I drove home. I was so pleased that Braxton, Kelsi and Sadie came to the meeting too. They came to support me since I always support them. It was so thoughtful and I really appreciated them for taking the time.
The intensity of my prayers increased today. Isn't that how it goes? I pray all the time but not all my prayers are as intense as they are right now. We want things to turn out a certain way...but we trust in our Father and will accept His way.
