I stopped by Carla's to see how she was doing. I had a feeling she might not be feeling up to par. I think I was right. When you go to Carla's you get greeted by five dogs. They like to be all over me when I first get there. I like them though so it doesn't bother me. Carla and I had a pretty strong discussion about our Temples. Carla has been reading a lot of things that others have wrote that might have truths but that they also are blowing way out of context. Carla was positive that if those things were written they are true. I told her they have truths but it isn't like she thinks. She was disgusted with what goes on in the Temple and said she could never accept the things she read. I get ticked that others make good things appear bad but that is just the way things are. Larry suggested I ask Carla if I should go to her neighbors to find out what kind of people Carla and Roger are. They have neighbors that are rude and would probably give us a whole different opinion of our good friends. I thought that was a good point. I told Carla that if she was going to read anything to know if what I believe is right then it should be the Book of Mormon. I told her that book isn't one person's opinion or view and that only the Spirit could testify to her of it's truthfulness. She shouldn't believe me or anyone else and would need to find things out for herself. Carla is a thinker...a deep thinker...and over thinks everything. (she said that about herself) I suggested that a balance of thinking and of feeling might do us both good. Anyway it was kind of a crazy little chat. We decided to go get Swigg's and that was good.
While we visited, I encouraged Carla to go to Boston with the sista's and support Jodi. I knew Carla really wanted to go and I didn't want her to miss out. She again was over thinking everything; transportation, numbers of those going, if they would be crowded in Shauna's house. I tried convincing her not to worry about those things and promised that things would work out and be fine. Well...her headache and struggle with depression got the worst of her today and things didn't end so well by the end of the day. Dog Gone It! I love my dear friend and realize that depression is real and can over power you some days. It breaks my heart. (if you get it, please get help)
I'm sad that I won't be going to Boston but really felt that the timing wasn't right and I needed to pick family over friends. I would be gone on Easter, which happens to be my favorite Sunday of the year. I love being at church with my hubby and kids. We also have so much going on right now and I know if I went I would be adding a little more stress to my hubby. Jared submitted his mission papers and we have to get him everything. The kid doesn't even own a regular white shirt. (his is cowboy cut) Kimi and Jared will both be going to the Temple soon for themselves and we need to get them everything. I need to schedule graduation and mission pictures. We will need to schedule family pictures. We have always taken the other boys to Kirkland or Nauvoo before their missions and are trying to fit that in too. It's all good and I am being taught that I can't do everything and to accept that. Dog Gone It! ☺
